here come again; the silent
sneaking in slowly that you don't even realize
when you do, your tears are already falling down
so evil; the silent
there's nothing much you can do to chase it away from you
just sit there, maybe laugh it off thinking that it will stop
or just close your eyes and think of blue waves
when you laugh again, the silent is still there
just untouched, unaware or being ignored
30 Mar 2012
29 Mar 2012
Something beautiful
"Why We Shout In Anger"
A Hindu saint who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled and asked.
'Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?'
Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout.'
'But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.' asked the saint
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples.
Finally the saint explained, .
'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.
What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small...'
The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'
He looked at his disciples and said.
'So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.'
p/s: I share this because I think the message is beautiful. Nothing to do with the religion. :)
A Hindu saint who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled and asked.
'Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?'
Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout.'
'But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.' asked the saint
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples.
Finally the saint explained, .
'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.
What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small...'
The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'
He looked at his disciples and said.
'So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.'
p/s: I share this because I think the message is beautiful. Nothing to do with the religion. :)
28 Mar 2012
Bau Wangi
Baru lepas baca tweet Hidd yang tertulis begini "Setiap kali orang tanya Scha pasal Awal, dia mesti cakap 'sebab dia sentiasa wangi'".
yes! wangi itu perkara penting yer saudara-saudara. tak kira la anda perempuan ker lelaki. sama jer equal kena wangi. kalau dah mandi, pakai la deodorant then spray la perfume. perfume tak perlu mahal pun. sekarang ni banyak jer jual perfume yang affordable tapi bau harum semerbak kasturi. nak dan tak nak jer.
and rasanya, kita boleh aware dengan bau badan kita sendiri. saya selalu jer rasa diri busuk lepas tu mula la bau-bau diri sendiri. kalau boleh nak balik mandi, tukar baju dan terjun dalam perfume. dan bau badan selalu bagi diri saya rasa macam nak hilang dari bumi.
kadang-kadang saya rasa, kita sebagai manusia dan terutamanya kawan-kawan dah kena boleh untuk berterus terang. kalau rasa kawan punya badan bau, bagitau la yer. saya selalu tanya kawan-kawan kalau saya rasa saya bau. kadang-kadang orang tak nak bagitau. kalau kita tanya, mungkin derang akan bagitau.
orang yang wangi akan buat orang lain rasa nyaman untuk duduk dekat dengan mereka. honestly, saya selalu jeles dengan orang yang mampu bagi satu lift bau wangi dan wangi tu mampu bertahan sampai lama. agaknya mcam mana derang buat yer? terjun dalam perfume kot!
p/s: Hari ni ulang tahun nya Hidd. tadi saya dah wish. tapi ni special sikit sebabkan idea untuk tulis ni dapat dari beliau.
Happy birthday, Selamat Ulang Tahun. semoga Allah lanjutkan usia, diberikan kebahagian alam ini dan sana. semoga terus mampu tersenyum sampai tak tahu bila. semoga Umar besar nanti jadi anak yang soleh dan bertanggung jawab untuk bondanya, keluarganya, dunia dan akhiratnya. Amin :)
yes! wangi itu perkara penting yer saudara-saudara. tak kira la anda perempuan ker lelaki. sama jer equal kena wangi. kalau dah mandi, pakai la deodorant then spray la perfume. perfume tak perlu mahal pun. sekarang ni banyak jer jual perfume yang affordable tapi bau harum semerbak kasturi. nak dan tak nak jer.
and rasanya, kita boleh aware dengan bau badan kita sendiri. saya selalu jer rasa diri busuk lepas tu mula la bau-bau diri sendiri. kalau boleh nak balik mandi, tukar baju dan terjun dalam perfume. dan bau badan selalu bagi diri saya rasa macam nak hilang dari bumi.
kadang-kadang saya rasa, kita sebagai manusia dan terutamanya kawan-kawan dah kena boleh untuk berterus terang. kalau rasa kawan punya badan bau, bagitau la yer. saya selalu tanya kawan-kawan kalau saya rasa saya bau. kadang-kadang orang tak nak bagitau. kalau kita tanya, mungkin derang akan bagitau.
orang yang wangi akan buat orang lain rasa nyaman untuk duduk dekat dengan mereka. honestly, saya selalu jeles dengan orang yang mampu bagi satu lift bau wangi dan wangi tu mampu bertahan sampai lama. agaknya mcam mana derang buat yer? terjun dalam perfume kot!
p/s: Hari ni ulang tahun nya Hidd. tadi saya dah wish. tapi ni special sikit sebabkan idea untuk tulis ni dapat dari beliau.
Happy birthday, Selamat Ulang Tahun. semoga Allah lanjutkan usia, diberikan kebahagian alam ini dan sana. semoga terus mampu tersenyum sampai tak tahu bila. semoga Umar besar nanti jadi anak yang soleh dan bertanggung jawab untuk bondanya, keluarganya, dunia dan akhiratnya. Amin :)
27 Mar 2012
Ability
How shallow can someone be
to judge a person without understanding
dalam dunia ni, ada banyak cara nak selesaikan masalah.
mungkin bagi setengah orang, bawak berbincang. mungkin bagi setengah orang, marah-marah. mungkin bagi setengah orang, diam. mungkin bagi setengah orang senyum.
tak semestinya apa yang kita tgk seperti yang kita fikir.
seseorang mungkin boleh ketawa dan terlihat riang, tapi dalam hati sapa yang tahu.
seseorang mungkin boleh marah dan teriak-teriak, tapi dalam hati mungkin menangis teresak-esak.
seseorang mungkin boleh diam dan tak berkata-kata, tapi dalam hati amarah membara.
kita tak pernah tahu apa seseorang itu tengah lalui. jadi kita jangan lah sesuka hati nak 'judge' dan letakkan 'label' pada keadaan seseorang itu. sebelum kita buat macam tu pada orang, apa kata kita renung-renungkan diri sendiri dulu. boleh bertanya tapi bertanya dan membuat statement atau me'label'kan seseorang itu lain yer kawan-kawan.
we are human, God created us with tremendous capacity to feel and to think. before you do something, use that ability :)
to judge a person without understanding
dalam dunia ni, ada banyak cara nak selesaikan masalah.
mungkin bagi setengah orang, bawak berbincang. mungkin bagi setengah orang, marah-marah. mungkin bagi setengah orang, diam. mungkin bagi setengah orang senyum.
tak semestinya apa yang kita tgk seperti yang kita fikir.
seseorang mungkin boleh ketawa dan terlihat riang, tapi dalam hati sapa yang tahu.
seseorang mungkin boleh marah dan teriak-teriak, tapi dalam hati mungkin menangis teresak-esak.
seseorang mungkin boleh diam dan tak berkata-kata, tapi dalam hati amarah membara.
kita tak pernah tahu apa seseorang itu tengah lalui. jadi kita jangan lah sesuka hati nak 'judge' dan letakkan 'label' pada keadaan seseorang itu. sebelum kita buat macam tu pada orang, apa kata kita renung-renungkan diri sendiri dulu. boleh bertanya tapi bertanya dan membuat statement atau me'label'kan seseorang itu lain yer kawan-kawan.
we are human, God created us with tremendous capacity to feel and to think. before you do something, use that ability :)
24 Mar 2012
23 Mar 2012
to my best friend
I wanted to tweet you, but twitter only allow me to write in 140 words. so I write this for you.
Friend,
We never cast you away.
You are always in our heart and our mind;
everywhere we sit, every drink we drinks and every food we eat.
We miss you; we do.
We can't force you to spent time with us because we know you have your priority to priorities.
We do wish you could set aside your time for us.
We do wish you could text us sometimes and ask us out for dinner.
We can't always be the one who try, my love.
Everything in life requires both parties to try and put in the effort.
I hope we tried hard enough to show you the effort, if not we will try harder.
We love you; no matter what; no matter how far.
Please remember this.
Friend,
We never cast you away.
You are always in our heart and our mind;
everywhere we sit, every drink we drinks and every food we eat.
We miss you; we do.
We can't force you to spent time with us because we know you have your priority to priorities.
We do wish you could set aside your time for us.
We do wish you could text us sometimes and ask us out for dinner.
We can't always be the one who try, my love.
Everything in life requires both parties to try and put in the effort.
I hope we tried hard enough to show you the effort, if not we will try harder.
We love you; no matter what; no matter how far.
Please remember this.
22 Mar 2012
Beautiful
In secret we meet
in silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive,
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.
By ; Lord George Gordon Byron
in silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive,
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.
By ; Lord George Gordon Byron
21 Mar 2012
sweetness
ingat dulu awal-awal bercinta
upload gambar dalam facebook, then comment with each other
ckp i love you la, you look so ugly la, thank you la
lepas tu, randomly post dekat wall with sweet quotes, music videos
all this small things,
mungkin bagi kita tak penting.
but if you want to have a long relationship and maintain your love towards each other, do it.
benda-benda manis kecil macam ni yang boleh buat satu benda besar yang tak best boleh dilupakan.
so many ways to put a smile on your partner's face.
kalau selalu balik kerja lambat, balik la awal tiba-tiba.
kalau tengah jalan pastu nampak makanan favorite dia, beli bagi kat dia. sekecik apa pun makanan tu, biar la kek apollo chocolate ker, but it will mean something.
ni contoh buat yang belum berkahwin, kalau dah kahwin lagi banyak benda boleh buat! haha
the longer you stay together, the easier for you to forget how special your partner mean to you.
we tend to not do things that we did when we were trying to win our partner's heart because we know we already have them.
Think about it :)
upload gambar dalam facebook, then comment with each other
ckp i love you la, you look so ugly la, thank you la
lepas tu, randomly post dekat wall with sweet quotes, music videos
all this small things,
mungkin bagi kita tak penting.
but if you want to have a long relationship and maintain your love towards each other, do it.
benda-benda manis kecil macam ni yang boleh buat satu benda besar yang tak best boleh dilupakan.
so many ways to put a smile on your partner's face.
kalau selalu balik kerja lambat, balik la awal tiba-tiba.
kalau tengah jalan pastu nampak makanan favorite dia, beli bagi kat dia. sekecik apa pun makanan tu, biar la kek apollo chocolate ker, but it will mean something.
ni contoh buat yang belum berkahwin, kalau dah kahwin lagi banyak benda boleh buat! haha
the longer you stay together, the easier for you to forget how special your partner mean to you.
we tend to not do things that we did when we were trying to win our partner's heart because we know we already have them.
Think about it :)
20 Mar 2012
SPM?
patut la semua orang kecoh dengan result SPM tapi aku chill jer.
baru aku sedar balik, I've never gone through that moment.
UPSR, PMR, SPM - semua aku tak ambik. I've always wonder how does it feel to be in that moment.
yang aku tau, nerves audition and ambik results menari.
mesti lain rasanya. ker sama jer?
baru 2 tahun lepas rasa macam mana nervesnya amek keputusan untuk academic results.
waktu kat college, nerves nak go online check results tu. aku selalu tutup half of my laptop dulu so that I don't see the results.
In the end, in my field, the results would not matter much. It matters if you want to continue study. Working life, no body ever ask me what was my cgpa in college.
But that doesn't mean you can take it for granted. Work hard, in everything that you do. Work and study with passion and sincerity.
Then you will get this amazing feeling; satisfaction and you will look back with no regrets because you know you have done your best.
baru aku sedar balik, I've never gone through that moment.
UPSR, PMR, SPM - semua aku tak ambik. I've always wonder how does it feel to be in that moment.
yang aku tau, nerves audition and ambik results menari.
mesti lain rasanya. ker sama jer?
baru 2 tahun lepas rasa macam mana nervesnya amek keputusan untuk academic results.
waktu kat college, nerves nak go online check results tu. aku selalu tutup half of my laptop dulu so that I don't see the results.
In the end, in my field, the results would not matter much. It matters if you want to continue study. Working life, no body ever ask me what was my cgpa in college.
But that doesn't mean you can take it for granted. Work hard, in everything that you do. Work and study with passion and sincerity.
Then you will get this amazing feeling; satisfaction and you will look back with no regrets because you know you have done your best.
19 Mar 2012
she the nakal
comot,
si kecil yang manja dan nakal nak mampus! sekarang dah pandai bukak pintu bilik sendiri. 2-3 minggu lepas dia baru belajar-belajar bukak pintu. tiap pagi akan dengar la bunyi dia cuba bukak. tapi seminggu ni dah pandai. tau-tau dah kat dalam bilik.
pagi tadi dia pecah kan frame gamba yang besar tu. salah aku la letak kat bawah. tapi benda tu dah dekat 3 bulan kat bawah tu, baru hari ni dia berjaya pecahkan. entah apa lagi akan jadi mangsa dia lepas ni. biasanya kalau aku balik rumah, mesti akan ada surprises dari dia; bil air, surat insurance, apa saja kertas yang tertinggal atas meja akan berselerak macam snow flakes kat lantai. macam mana dia gigit sampai jadi halus macam tu pun tak tau.
mak kata, kalau nak marah dia and bagi dia paham, tenung mata dia dalam-dalam then cakap kat dia. masalahnya dah tak larat nak tenung!
tapi, comot adalah the sweetest. everytime aku balik, dia akan sambut depan pintu dengan muka dia yang konon-konon baru bangun tidur (sebab penah kantoi yang dia sebenarnya tak tidur). so bila bukak pintu, aku akan angkat dukung dia macam baby. and sekarang, dia paling suka tidur dengan aku. dia akan tidur betul-betul depan muka aku. kalau tak pun, badan dia mesti kena dengan badan aku.
she swept my sadness away.
si kecil yang manja dan nakal nak mampus! sekarang dah pandai bukak pintu bilik sendiri. 2-3 minggu lepas dia baru belajar-belajar bukak pintu. tiap pagi akan dengar la bunyi dia cuba bukak. tapi seminggu ni dah pandai. tau-tau dah kat dalam bilik.
pagi tadi dia pecah kan frame gamba yang besar tu. salah aku la letak kat bawah. tapi benda tu dah dekat 3 bulan kat bawah tu, baru hari ni dia berjaya pecahkan. entah apa lagi akan jadi mangsa dia lepas ni. biasanya kalau aku balik rumah, mesti akan ada surprises dari dia; bil air, surat insurance, apa saja kertas yang tertinggal atas meja akan berselerak macam snow flakes kat lantai. macam mana dia gigit sampai jadi halus macam tu pun tak tau.
mak kata, kalau nak marah dia and bagi dia paham, tenung mata dia dalam-dalam then cakap kat dia. masalahnya dah tak larat nak tenung!
tapi, comot adalah the sweetest. everytime aku balik, dia akan sambut depan pintu dengan muka dia yang konon-konon baru bangun tidur (sebab penah kantoi yang dia sebenarnya tak tidur). so bila bukak pintu, aku akan angkat dukung dia macam baby. and sekarang, dia paling suka tidur dengan aku. dia akan tidur betul-betul depan muka aku. kalau tak pun, badan dia mesti kena dengan badan aku.
she swept my sadness away.
...
henyak
hancur
pasrah
sedih
sakit
sepi
...
sendiri tanpa kata
sendiri tanpa nafas untuk di hela
yang ada sekarang, hanya percaya pada Dia
Dia yang satu, yang tak pernah tinggalkan kita.
hancur
pasrah
sedih
sakit
sepi
...
sendiri tanpa kata
sendiri tanpa nafas untuk di hela
yang ada sekarang, hanya percaya pada Dia
Dia yang satu, yang tak pernah tinggalkan kita.
18 Mar 2012
16 Mar 2012
stop
Tiba tiba semua berhenti
angin pun tak lagi terdengar
cuma air mata yang sepertinya mengalir perlahan
tangan yang menggeletar keras
terhenti di situ;
angin pun tak lagi terdengar
cuma air mata yang sepertinya mengalir perlahan
tangan yang menggeletar keras
terhenti di situ;
15 Mar 2012
Phillip Phillips - Hard To Handle - American Idol 2012 (Top 12)
Now, do you see the passion in his eyes when he sing?
Do you see the passion in his body movements?
This performance was just a few days after his surgery. Tak sure sangat apa sebabnya.
But look at him! he rock the stage like a piece of cake.
Dari audition lagi, aku suka gila tengok dia. Sebab bila dia perform, he shut down everything around him. It's just him, his guitar and his voice. He moves like he got something moving in him. Macam electric.
Philip, kau kalah pun, bagi aku kau tetap awesome!
Journey
tarik nafas dalam-dalam
pejam mata erat-erat
ini belum berakhir
ini belum sempurna
pertama dalam sekian lama
gelap tapi ada cahaya yang samar-samar
mungkin cahaya itu yang akan tunjuk arah
tapi arah yang benar atau salah?
hela nafas perlahan-lahan
buka mata sedikit demi sedikit
pasti ada jawapan
cuma perlu lebih usaha untuk mencari
"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" - Lao-Tsu
pejam mata erat-erat
ini belum berakhir
ini belum sempurna
pertama dalam sekian lama
gelap tapi ada cahaya yang samar-samar
mungkin cahaya itu yang akan tunjuk arah
tapi arah yang benar atau salah?
hela nafas perlahan-lahan
buka mata sedikit demi sedikit
pasti ada jawapan
cuma perlu lebih usaha untuk mencari
"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" - Lao-Tsu
14 Mar 2012
Short = tall
Yes,
I used to have this wish;
I wish that I'm tall and skinny. Gifted with beautiful face. It would be perfect.
I struggle, here and there in my life.
Being the shortest among all people that I know, sometime does effect my confidence level.
I have difficulties finding jobs because of my heights.
I hate heels because it hurt my back but sometime I still wear it because it makes me feel good.
To be honest, I always make myself think that I'm tall. At least taller than my actual heights.
I am now happy with how I am.
I have long accepted that this is how I am, how I look.
Doesn't matter what other people say or think,
I love myself for what I am capable of doing,
for what I know I am worth for,
for because I am unique as I am.
*Entry ni mungkin macam perasan sendiri. But in life, you sometimes need that confident boost :)
I used to have this wish;
I wish that I'm tall and skinny. Gifted with beautiful face. It would be perfect.
I struggle, here and there in my life.
Being the shortest among all people that I know, sometime does effect my confidence level.
I have difficulties finding jobs because of my heights.
I hate heels because it hurt my back but sometime I still wear it because it makes me feel good.
To be honest, I always make myself think that I'm tall. At least taller than my actual heights.
I am now happy with how I am.
I have long accepted that this is how I am, how I look.
Doesn't matter what other people say or think,
I love myself for what I am capable of doing,
for what I know I am worth for,
for because I am unique as I am.
*Entry ni mungkin macam perasan sendiri. But in life, you sometimes need that confident boost :)
13 Mar 2012
Be inspired
I love hanging out and meeting people that are able to inspires me.
Make me look into different directions.
Challenge my way of thinking and make me think even bigger.
Drives me crazy by asking all sorts of questions that, I, actually know the answer but never want to give the answer because I'm just afraid of knowing that I know.
These are the people that make me realize how small I am. They have thousand of reason to be proud of themselves but they stay low and humble. These are the people that when you sit beside them, you can feel their presence and aura; you know that they have been through so many things in life and you should not mess around with them.
However, of course sometimes you just want to go and do stupid things, crazy things. Go! do it. But know your limit and get back to reality. This world is huge that if you want to be good, you have to be quick and work very hard.
Time flies, by the time you realize that you've not been doing things that you are supposed to do, it might be too late. Even though people say; it's never too late.
Make me look into different directions.
Challenge my way of thinking and make me think even bigger.
Drives me crazy by asking all sorts of questions that, I, actually know the answer but never want to give the answer because I'm just afraid of knowing that I know.
These are the people that make me realize how small I am. They have thousand of reason to be proud of themselves but they stay low and humble. These are the people that when you sit beside them, you can feel their presence and aura; you know that they have been through so many things in life and you should not mess around with them.
However, of course sometimes you just want to go and do stupid things, crazy things. Go! do it. But know your limit and get back to reality. This world is huge that if you want to be good, you have to be quick and work very hard.
Time flies, by the time you realize that you've not been doing things that you are supposed to do, it might be too late. Even though people say; it's never too late.
12 Mar 2012
Passion
when you do something that you love, you'll live longer
when you do something that you love, you'll look younger
when you do something that you love, you'll have something new to look forward to everyday
passion
something that you cannot live even one day without doing it
something that lift you up and fill you in with this awesome feeling
today,
I came back from my dance class with a smile on my face
feeling of awesomeness
body that feel healthier than ever
heart that fill with joy
fingers tapping to the rhythm that is playing on the radio
that is what passion do to you
all the above and even more
when you do something that you love, you'll look younger
when you do something that you love, you'll have something new to look forward to everyday
passion
something that you cannot live even one day without doing it
something that lift you up and fill you in with this awesome feeling
today,
I came back from my dance class with a smile on my face
feeling of awesomeness
body that feel healthier than ever
heart that fill with joy
fingers tapping to the rhythm that is playing on the radio
that is what passion do to you
all the above and even more
10 Mar 2012
At first sight
I was watching this movie. Very good movie.
Banyak message indah dalam cerita tu.
It's about a guy who went blind since he was 1 years old.
He's been living in that condition for very long until he met this girl.
When she was at his home, she saw an article about a doctor who does eye operation. To help the blind to see again. So, she called the doctor and he was excited to help. She told the blind guy about the plan and at first, he went mad about it then he decided to do it.
Operation went well. For the first time he could see, it was not a good experience. He still need his touch in order to know what he is seeing. His touch will tell the brain and the brain will tell the eyes.
The learning process went terribly stressful for him and her. She started to feel annoyed and the relationship went down to no good. They try to make up again and then it was the happiest time of their life.
Then his eyes started to shut off, bit by bit. The doctor said that he's going blind again.
Through out the whole movie, I've realised that there are so many things that we, as human do not do to each other. Because we can see, we forgot to feel.
When we forgot to feel, we tend to take things for granted.
We don't feel the texture of the wall,
we no longer hear the sound of the rain,
we don't breath in the wind,
we don't appreciate colors,
we don't look at people's face when we talk,
we don't care about lights and darkness.
'You'll see a lot but non of that matters when you loose the one you need to see'
Amazing.
Mulai lah untuk appreciate apa yang selama ini kita rasa tak penting.
Tengok sekeliling kita, appreciate.
Tengok orang yang kita sayang, tengok betul-betul. Peluk, cium mak bapak kita, suami isteri, pasangan, bestfriends, atok nenek, pets dan diri kita sendiri.
Ingat semua keindahan yang Allah bagi kat kita.
We never know when we might loose all the things we have in life.
Last quote from the movie :
'I saw the horizon, its out there. Even though I'm not able to touch it, its worth reaching for.'
Banyak message indah dalam cerita tu.
It's about a guy who went blind since he was 1 years old.
He's been living in that condition for very long until he met this girl.
When she was at his home, she saw an article about a doctor who does eye operation. To help the blind to see again. So, she called the doctor and he was excited to help. She told the blind guy about the plan and at first, he went mad about it then he decided to do it.
Operation went well. For the first time he could see, it was not a good experience. He still need his touch in order to know what he is seeing. His touch will tell the brain and the brain will tell the eyes.
The learning process went terribly stressful for him and her. She started to feel annoyed and the relationship went down to no good. They try to make up again and then it was the happiest time of their life.
Then his eyes started to shut off, bit by bit. The doctor said that he's going blind again.
Through out the whole movie, I've realised that there are so many things that we, as human do not do to each other. Because we can see, we forgot to feel.
When we forgot to feel, we tend to take things for granted.
We don't feel the texture of the wall,
we no longer hear the sound of the rain,
we don't breath in the wind,
we don't appreciate colors,
we don't look at people's face when we talk,
we don't care about lights and darkness.
'You'll see a lot but non of that matters when you loose the one you need to see'
Amazing.
Mulai lah untuk appreciate apa yang selama ini kita rasa tak penting.
Tengok sekeliling kita, appreciate.
Tengok orang yang kita sayang, tengok betul-betul. Peluk, cium mak bapak kita, suami isteri, pasangan, bestfriends, atok nenek, pets dan diri kita sendiri.
Ingat semua keindahan yang Allah bagi kat kita.
We never know when we might loose all the things we have in life.
Last quote from the movie :
'I saw the horizon, its out there. Even though I'm not able to touch it, its worth reaching for.'
9 Mar 2012
Sahabat
You know what is amazing?
Bila kau boleh lepak dan borak dengan kawan kau rasa macam kau borak hari-hari,
padahal dah 4 tahun tak pernah jumpa dan borak.
That is amazing.
Semalam duduk kami ber 7 di meja yang panjang.
Dah lama rasanya tak kena sambung meja bila lepak. Yesterday was it.
Rasa happy tengok kawan-kawan semua dah besar, tinggi, gemuk.
Aku jer yang masih pendek.
Tapi tak ada apa yang berubah. Semua sama. Hanya beza luaran sahaja.
Masih cakap sekuat dunia sampai satu kedai boleh dengar kisah hidup kami.
Masih gelak sampai buat perut rasa naik six pack.
Masih cakap; this is supposed to be secret, but I'm gonna tell you guys anyway.
Masih suka cerita topik yang berbeza-beza pada waktu yang sama sampai confuse sendiri.
Masih suka kutuk masing-masing dan diri sendiri.
Tapi semalam, topik paling hangat ialah sex.
How important sex in a relationship?
Does sex define how much you love your partner?
It feels funny, because we use to talk about other stuff.
And now, after 4 years, we are 23 years old and we talk about sex.
Maybe one day, we'll talk about our kids
p/s: thank you guys for being good friends. After so long. Let's stay the same :)
Bila kau boleh lepak dan borak dengan kawan kau rasa macam kau borak hari-hari,
padahal dah 4 tahun tak pernah jumpa dan borak.
That is amazing.
Semalam duduk kami ber 7 di meja yang panjang.
Dah lama rasanya tak kena sambung meja bila lepak. Yesterday was it.
Rasa happy tengok kawan-kawan semua dah besar, tinggi, gemuk.
Aku jer yang masih pendek.
Tapi tak ada apa yang berubah. Semua sama. Hanya beza luaran sahaja.
Masih cakap sekuat dunia sampai satu kedai boleh dengar kisah hidup kami.
Masih gelak sampai buat perut rasa naik six pack.
Masih cakap; this is supposed to be secret, but I'm gonna tell you guys anyway.
Masih suka cerita topik yang berbeza-beza pada waktu yang sama sampai confuse sendiri.
Masih suka kutuk masing-masing dan diri sendiri.
Tapi semalam, topik paling hangat ialah sex.
How important sex in a relationship?
Does sex define how much you love your partner?
It feels funny, because we use to talk about other stuff.
And now, after 4 years, we are 23 years old and we talk about sex.
Maybe one day, we'll talk about our kids
p/s: thank you guys for being good friends. After so long. Let's stay the same :)
hanya mungkin
Tiba-tiba rasa macam nak kurung diri dalam bilik.
Gelap, tak payah bukak lampu.
Berbekalkan api amarah dan air mata sedih sudah cukup.
Tapi, benar. aku cuma ingin diam bungkam dalam kamar.
Biar waktu lewat tanpa aku sedar.
Perut lapar tak aku pedulikan.
Pening kepala biarkan pecah saja.
Mungkin, hanya mungkin,
esok hari ku lebih indah, lebih cerah, lebih tenang.
Gelap, tak payah bukak lampu.
Berbekalkan api amarah dan air mata sedih sudah cukup.
Tapi, benar. aku cuma ingin diam bungkam dalam kamar.
Biar waktu lewat tanpa aku sedar.
Perut lapar tak aku pedulikan.
Pening kepala biarkan pecah saja.
Mungkin, hanya mungkin,
esok hari ku lebih indah, lebih cerah, lebih tenang.
7 Mar 2012
.
Okay.
Maybe I should stop whining.
Yes, I'm in pain. Not from the dance, not because of my weight.
I am just in pain.
1. You don't have to be so sarcastic
2. You don't have to act like I don't know that what ever you said is for me
3. I will still do what ever I want even though I'm in pain, I'll dance till I break my bone. Its okay
4. Thank you
Maybe I should stop whining.
Yes, I'm in pain. Not from the dance, not because of my weight.
I am just in pain.
1. You don't have to be so sarcastic
2. You don't have to act like I don't know that what ever you said is for me
3. I will still do what ever I want even though I'm in pain, I'll dance till I break my bone. Its okay
4. Thank you
6 Mar 2012
Kasut ajaib
Kasut,
Kasut bagi aku adalah satu benda yang sangat ajaib sebab dia mampu bagi aku tak tidur malam. Kalau tidur malam pun, dia mampu bagi aku termimpi-mimpi pasal dia.
Selalu, kalau aku masuk kedai kasut, aku akan tarik nafas dalam-dalam. Sebab takut kalau ada kasut yang akan bagi aku jatuh cinta pada pandangan pertama.
Kalau ada kasut yang bila aku tengok terus jantung aku terberhenti sekejap, aku cuba untuk get myself back together then dengan penuh rasa sayang dan kasih aku akan cuba kasut tu. Kadang-kadang boleh pusing satu kedai dua ke tiga kali. Jatuh cinta pun, pakai kena selesa.
Kalau aku rasa macam tak yakin nak beli ker tak, aku akan balik. Buat bodoh dulu. Tapi kalau aku tak mampu lupakan kasut tu, teringat-ingat dan termimpi-mimpi, maknanya memang jodoh aku dengan dia la tu. So, aku akan beli jugak.
Dulu, selalu jer aku beli kasut sebab aku suka sangat. Tapi aku tak pakai. Sebab aku takut rosak. So aku simpan jer sampai dia rosak sendiri. Hahaha.. I know it's stupid. Tapi benda ini nyata.
Kakak aku pun gila kasut. Tapi dia suka kasut yang tingi-tingi. Aku kadang tak mampu nak pakai heels sebab tulang belakang aku yang berkarat ni kadang tak mampu nak tanggung. Tapi aku suka tengok kasut yang tersusun banyak dalam wardrobe room tu. Luckily, size kakak aku and aku sama. Jadi kami selalu share kasut.
Mungkin aku patut belajar buat kasut. Mungkin aku boleh buat kasut untuk orang-orang yang sakit belakang macam aku ni.
Itu saja, saja nak kongsi betapa ajaib nyer kasut untuk aku :)
Kasut bagi aku adalah satu benda yang sangat ajaib sebab dia mampu bagi aku tak tidur malam. Kalau tidur malam pun, dia mampu bagi aku termimpi-mimpi pasal dia.
Selalu, kalau aku masuk kedai kasut, aku akan tarik nafas dalam-dalam. Sebab takut kalau ada kasut yang akan bagi aku jatuh cinta pada pandangan pertama.
Kalau ada kasut yang bila aku tengok terus jantung aku terberhenti sekejap, aku cuba untuk get myself back together then dengan penuh rasa sayang dan kasih aku akan cuba kasut tu. Kadang-kadang boleh pusing satu kedai dua ke tiga kali. Jatuh cinta pun, pakai kena selesa.
Kalau aku rasa macam tak yakin nak beli ker tak, aku akan balik. Buat bodoh dulu. Tapi kalau aku tak mampu lupakan kasut tu, teringat-ingat dan termimpi-mimpi, maknanya memang jodoh aku dengan dia la tu. So, aku akan beli jugak.
Dulu, selalu jer aku beli kasut sebab aku suka sangat. Tapi aku tak pakai. Sebab aku takut rosak. So aku simpan jer sampai dia rosak sendiri. Hahaha.. I know it's stupid. Tapi benda ini nyata.
Kakak aku pun gila kasut. Tapi dia suka kasut yang tingi-tingi. Aku kadang tak mampu nak pakai heels sebab tulang belakang aku yang berkarat ni kadang tak mampu nak tanggung. Tapi aku suka tengok kasut yang tersusun banyak dalam wardrobe room tu. Luckily, size kakak aku and aku sama. Jadi kami selalu share kasut.
Mungkin aku patut belajar buat kasut. Mungkin aku boleh buat kasut untuk orang-orang yang sakit belakang macam aku ni.
Itu saja, saja nak kongsi betapa ajaib nyer kasut untuk aku :)
Percaya; This is diary
Entah kenapa; Tengah emo shit.
This place is the only place that I feel safe to talk about what I want, what I feel and what I'm scared of.
Doing it on Facebook will make people think I'm pathetic.
Doing it on twitter people will say; This is not a diary.
So here I am,
telling you all strangers what I want, what I feel and what I'm scared of.
Pernah berada dalam satu situasi dimana kau tak tahu apa harus kau rasa?
Tak tau jika apa kau katakan masuk di akal?
Sedaya upaya untuk cari tahu apa rasa yang tengah kau rasakan ini?
Sekarang aku berada dalam situasi itu.
Situasi kosong.
Situasi penuh rasa tapi pada masa yang sama; tanpa rasa.
Everything happen for a reason - Allah maha kuasa.
Pasti ada saja rancangannya di sebalik tangismu,
disebalik amarahmu,
disebalik tanda tanyamu,
disebalik kegagalan dalam hidupmu.
Yang perlu kau lakukan ialah PERCAYA.
Percaya bahawa semuanya sudah di atur dengan sebaik-baiknya.
Percaya bahawa suatu hari nanti, semuanya akan kembali baik-baik saja.
InsyaAllah
This place is the only place that I feel safe to talk about what I want, what I feel and what I'm scared of.
Doing it on Facebook will make people think I'm pathetic.
Doing it on twitter people will say; This is not a diary.
So here I am,
telling you all strangers what I want, what I feel and what I'm scared of.
Pernah berada dalam satu situasi dimana kau tak tahu apa harus kau rasa?
Tak tau jika apa kau katakan masuk di akal?
Sedaya upaya untuk cari tahu apa rasa yang tengah kau rasakan ini?
Sekarang aku berada dalam situasi itu.
Situasi kosong.
Situasi penuh rasa tapi pada masa yang sama; tanpa rasa.
Everything happen for a reason - Allah maha kuasa.
Pasti ada saja rancangannya di sebalik tangismu,
disebalik amarahmu,
disebalik tanda tanyamu,
disebalik kegagalan dalam hidupmu.
Yang perlu kau lakukan ialah PERCAYA.
Percaya bahawa semuanya sudah di atur dengan sebaik-baiknya.
Percaya bahawa suatu hari nanti, semuanya akan kembali baik-baik saja.
InsyaAllah
5 Mar 2012
Papa and his painting
When I was a little kid, I love watching my dad paint.
Yes, my dad is a painter. An oil painter. And he paint beautiful things.
Too beautiful that sometimes it takes your breath away.
I will sit behind him silently and watch him as he start putting on the first color on the white canvas. Every line is his breath, his mind and his soul. Sometimes I think that he have his own music in his head while he paint.
I miss those moments.
I always tell him to paint again. Because I know he have something big to show the world.
But painting is so special to him that he want all the time he need.
All the mind, all the soul and all the idea have to be in one moment.
That moment will make it perfect.
When he finishes a painting, we will sit in front of the painting and he will ask me;
'What do you think this painting is about?'
I will go on and on explaining and he will say;
'Beautiful thoughts. That is your journey. My journey and yours doesn't have to be the same. That what makes it beautiful. You are able to have your own imagination. Your own journey.'
I hope that moment come faster, because I miss the beautiful journey that he will take me in.
Yes, my dad is a painter. An oil painter. And he paint beautiful things.
Too beautiful that sometimes it takes your breath away.
I will sit behind him silently and watch him as he start putting on the first color on the white canvas. Every line is his breath, his mind and his soul. Sometimes I think that he have his own music in his head while he paint.
I miss those moments.
I always tell him to paint again. Because I know he have something big to show the world.
But painting is so special to him that he want all the time he need.
All the mind, all the soul and all the idea have to be in one moment.
That moment will make it perfect.
When he finishes a painting, we will sit in front of the painting and he will ask me;
'What do you think this painting is about?'
I will go on and on explaining and he will say;
'Beautiful thoughts. That is your journey. My journey and yours doesn't have to be the same. That what makes it beautiful. You are able to have your own imagination. Your own journey.'
I hope that moment come faster, because I miss the beautiful journey that he will take me in.
4 Mar 2012
My memory of you
The smell of your perfume faded away as you walk slowly out from the door. The look on your face; I can't describe them in words. Your hair tight back, with few white dust on it. Your black jacket was zipped up till your neck; even we know it is not cold; not even close. Your shoes, faded green; old skool looking shoes. I remember those shoes.
Your hands are rough, I can see the lines from far. Your lips are getting darker; you've been smoking too much. You still slouch your body no matter how many times I tell you not to. You still turn your head slower than you should. You still walk with your heels up. You still smile with that cheeky look showing only your upper teeth.
Remember those days,
Those days when time flies so fast when I'm with you?
Those days where we wish we could stop time so that we can enjoy every moment spent together?
Those days when we fight and then we apologies and everything went back to normal?
Those days when seeing each other is like a plant getting the heat of sun?
Those days were amazing; not a single doubt about it
Everything was filled with colors; filled with details that until today, we can see it very clearly.
Today everything was so blurry; everything was black and white; everything went slower.
You were never a mistake
you are the memory that will stay and linger with the air I breathe
you were the choreography to my dance
the music to my ears
the timeline in my videos
Just that from today,
I'll breath in new air
I'll choreograph new moves
I'll listen to new songs
I'll have new timeline in my video to complete
and it is for my own; my own satisfaction
I'm sorry for everything
For putting you in this moment; this situation.
But we know why, I hope we know why.
We shall move on; but we shall remember too.
Yesterday was something that keep us alive today; we shall thanks each other for that.
Your hands are rough, I can see the lines from far. Your lips are getting darker; you've been smoking too much. You still slouch your body no matter how many times I tell you not to. You still turn your head slower than you should. You still walk with your heels up. You still smile with that cheeky look showing only your upper teeth.
Remember those days,
Those days when time flies so fast when I'm with you?
Those days where we wish we could stop time so that we can enjoy every moment spent together?
Those days when we fight and then we apologies and everything went back to normal?
Those days when seeing each other is like a plant getting the heat of sun?
Those days were amazing; not a single doubt about it
Everything was filled with colors; filled with details that until today, we can see it very clearly.
Today everything was so blurry; everything was black and white; everything went slower.
You were never a mistake
you are the memory that will stay and linger with the air I breathe
you were the choreography to my dance
the music to my ears
the timeline in my videos
Just that from today,
I'll breath in new air
I'll choreograph new moves
I'll listen to new songs
I'll have new timeline in my video to complete
and it is for my own; my own satisfaction
I'm sorry for everything
For putting you in this moment; this situation.
But we know why, I hope we know why.
We shall move on; but we shall remember too.
Yesterday was something that keep us alive today; we shall thanks each other for that.
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