forgiveness effect physically, mentally, emotionally.

i jumped because i thought that you will be there to catch me,
but you are not there.

i injured myself,
and you are not there to take care of me,
i cried,
and you are not there to wipe my tears.

so i smile,
and you are there smiling beside me.
then i laugh,
and you then laugh back,
but laughing at me,
for being stupid because i trusted you.